when stressed, i escaped to my gardens. i poured all my love that i could give into it. but this year, i will move away from all i have loved for so long. i’ve been ignoring my gardens this spring. i’ve not weeded, or taken photographs of the best that has arisen this spring. but two days ago, my eye spotted something orange. despite my lack of attention, or perhaps because of it, things have flowered anyway. Ranunculus, an absolute favorite flower of mine…i bought bulbs & planted them two years ago. every spring, the green popped up through the dirt, but the Alabama heat stops the Ranunculus from flowering, it has never gotten close to producing a flower. BUT, this year, the year i have to say goodbye to all my plans & flowering plants, my garden decided to say goodbye to me in the best way possible. the orange Ranunculus is one that came up from my own labor…tis a gift, reminding me that there is always hope though difficult times. bad times pass just as the good ones do. this bad time has taken too long. i have been going through a difficult divorce. it didn’t have to be. the marriage died years ago, it should have been easy to walk away. that, of course seldom happens…the last two years have made me feel as though i had a blanket blinding me to the rest of the world. it is almost over. And when my choice was made, to remove the blanket & living brightly again…suddenly i could see a whole new future to create. despite being unloved by me this year, my garden decided to love me instead, as seen above. it is as though they felt my lack of love & attention, so they grabbed my attention in the only way they knew how. They BLASTED BLOOMS…MY (mine, mine, mine) garden bloomed brighter then it ever had before. my flowers had missed me. and i them.
so my jeans have grass stains & fingernails have dirt & the weeds have been pulled. Not for the next owner, but for me & mine. bliss.