i haven’t taken photos of my daughter in a long time. i had all my gear still up from another shoot & i asked her.
“UUUuugghhhh, no mom, i’m so ugly” she said.
“i know, i just want to document how ugly you are” i said. (she knows i’m being as ridicules as she is)
“can you change your shirt?” i ask. She is wearing a black SAAB t-shirt that three other people could fit into.
“uuugghhh, why?” “just something prettier then a black t-shirt, please? i’m taking a basic head shot.” i feel a glimmer of hope because she leaves to change into a…sports bra.
“i don’t own anything pretty” i think she thought i’d give up. I grab a hair clip to pin up some of her MOUNTAINs of THICK hair.
“uuuggghhhhh, why are you messing up my hair?! you always clip it up & it looks ugly” she says.
“because it looks ugly, don’t worry about it, i’m not taking pictures for you, they are for me” i say.
so many of the images i took (i took less then a minutes worth of pictures) were caught mid-eye roll. among the 20 images, this is the one that made my heart stop. a heart stopping reaction is how i know i got a good one. the others? they make me laugh because i can’t wait to show her.
“Come and see how ugly you are!!! You’re gonna love it” i yell (a few days pass between shooting & editing because i got/have the flu) I have the one above on screen.
“oh, cool color, can you get rid of your logo and send it to me?” that is the best compliment i’ve ever gotten-about a photo i took of her.
“there is a much better one, wanna see it?” i show her all the mid-eye roll photos & we laugh over them. we play around with editing for a while. then she leaves the room & a little while later i hear…
“how do i look with a much darker eyebrows?” I look up from my computer & she has drawn a HUGE, dark monobrow above her eyes. she looks like a neanderthal. I beg to take pictures. she takes off at a run, to wash the brows off, i chase her saying…
“Pleeeaaaassseee? You look so beautiful”