My son found a heart shaped rock & I asked him to show it me. He said, “This is how I feel about you, Mom.” Girls are born to go, they learn fast. Boys hold on tight to their mothers & learn very, very slowly. Boys come bouncing into the room like Tigger, with their shirts on backward, pants unzipped & shoes untied. I haven’t ever seen either of my daughters do that. I seem to be generalizing, but I’m making an assumption that hopefully all boys are like mine. Holding on tight to their first love until the teen in them sets in. I hope when he grows away from me, to become a man, that he looks back & remembers he loved me first.
My twin brother sits in the background freshly flown in from California. He left us all for California when he was 19. We see him once a year, but we all settle back into our roles, as though we’ve never been apart. That is a Blessing & a gift.
2me4art 
^ – ^ that’s true, Amy! I’m the only child of a broken family, and a fragile connection of my parents so that we may feel this is still a family – somehow ! Yes I worry about them so much ,may be because of the traditional thinking or living habit, it’s not easy (and common) for a broken piece to find a new mate,there are so many complex things – what if I leave the nest ? will they hurt each other (Sure they will)? new house for each ? then can I bear all the fees for that ? if not then what’s the ideal solution ? – I always wonder time to time… !
I always look things on the bright side, I’m kind of optimistic – but no-one can have a picture with only bright colors, and I won’t often show those dark colors of mine! Thanks for all the sharings,Amy, I feel truly grateful for everything!
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Please let me know when you need to write. I am here. If they are broken, they need to fix it, not you. amy
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^ – ^ this is one of the most heart-warmed words that I have ever received,thanks so many many times,Amy,wish you well !
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my pleasure!
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he will always love you – I believe ^ – ^ I’m turning 24 this December , and I found that the more I grow up , the more I love my mom and dad – feel so blue thinking of the day that I will (have to) leave them to build my own little nest 😦 and the time they (have to) leave me 4ever is something I can’t bear for sure 😦
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Your parents are going to be here for a very long time. The longer you live, the more losses you will witness & you will learn to mourn & how to live with loss.
I think the feeling of lossing your parents has to a great deal to do with moving away from them. But once you start looking for a place of your own & it is yours to make into your home. Is one of life great adventures. Overtime, the thought of moving back in with your parents will be something you don’t want to do. Believe it. It will come to be.
Amy
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Thanks so much for your hearty sharing,Amy ^ – ^ writing my own story will be nice , and something I have to do for sure, as how this life goes on.
However, I find that time flies really fast, Amy , too fast 😦 ,feel like I blink my eyes once, and a year had passed, what will happen after several blinks ? I really have no idea ,hope that everything will be just fine 🙂 !
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You fill your mind with worry. Sounds like anxiety, maybe you should talk to someone. I’m 43 I’ve had some years fly by in seconds & other years that were so long & painful that I wished for an ending. I think that is what life is, a series of ups & downs. That is how we learn, grow and become the person we are supposed to be. And your parents would hate for you to spend so much time worrying about them! They want you to have a wonderful life, a family.
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